Plenty of inquisitions.

It's so easy to just start writing this although there is an exam tomorrow...talk about preparing to fail. Was going to start a new blog, but why not let you see my flaws, fears and biggest conflicts in my mind before everything became positive? Of course. Fed up of myself now, just want to post how I see the world, no matter how awfully written. XD

Happy new year! (A little late.)

Naturally, you'd expect everyone to 'Change' or desire to because a new year has just begun. Why does a day define when you're going to actually do something? But the amount of people who have actually stuck to their goal is startling, I applaud you all!

Getting the strength to try something new is something you all experience. Those nerves shivering your spine, stomach turning inside out. Until its actually over and you're glad you experienced something new, regardless of the outcome. If everyone could get over this fear we would all be perfect human beings, no doubt about it. But perfection is boring. Overrated. You may be thinking....but no. Confidence doesn't subtract nervousness, fears and hopes. To reach your goal, you will always be trying new things. 

'Do we construct ourselves purely through environmental factors?' Is a question which frequently runs through the mind of many, both the young and the old. Is life simply about finding what was already there, or creating yourself based on norms and values society smothers us with? It's very difficult to have expansive knowledge about everything you actually WANT to know. Do you ever feel intimidated by someone who 'Knows more' than yourself?

Unfortunately you will never know everything about life, your questions will remain unanswered and passed down through generations. But the faith lies in that there will always be an answer out there somewhere, however vague. 

These cloudy ideas are what guides most people through life. 

Information capacity does not necessarily mean more power, although arguably it is about how one chooses to use this combined with their ability. Exploit every opportunity that the world offers you, as you may not be offered another. Ever. 

Social sciences are a great deal less concise than pure science- the answers you're looking for may be vague or answered by the wrong people. Do they really provide necessary explanations for the actions of society? Do institutions really serve the purpose they are outlined to fulfill? Our purpose is undefined and if so, why is there so much stigma about certain things. You can't pursue what you dream of directly, without the safety blanket of a back-up plan. 

How did you decide your political views? That's something I'm having difficulty with, as I often do not fully agree with either. Left, unsure of how left but not right. Consumer but a libertarian.  Many young people are in the predicament of being unable to have as large a voice in politics as they should. Does anyone find it rather confusing that history is compulsory in schools but politics isn't? Although we could take an obvious guess at why this is.

Following the publishing of this blog post, I have promised myself to actively learn about cultures, policies etc. Not for any simple sake, just so I become a more well-rounded individual. 

Picture below is my political stance, answer to get your results!

 http://www.politicalcompass.org/test

 

Something different :)

I usually don't think this sentimentally about things but today I was genuinely thinking deeply about things in life and 'Love' was one of those things that popped up. Whenever I think of the idea of love, there's a range of things which cross my mind. Family, friends and of course partners. Being teenagers, we always wonder whether what the future holds for us, especially in terms of love. I'm always rather hesitant when trying to talk with people about this. It may be the immaturity in me, but there are genuine reasons that make me think that romanticism is not all it's cracked up to be. It doesn't mean I don't disbelieve. But how do we explain people who numerously re-marry and claim to be 'in love' each time? In general I'm a firm believer that not everyone has a soulmate and we're just people who find others interesting. The interest builds and this leads into a partnership with them. As ignorant as that sounds, my mind isn't creative enough to imagine a blissful story in which two people are able to confidently ignore the harsh realities of the world and focus on themselves and their love as individuals.

 When I type 'Love' into google, it reads "Love is an emotion of a strong affection and personal attachment". This sounds about right....but I wouldn't know. Can't we be attached to people without that strong affection? I want to believe in love, I am a big fan of rom-coms and I love cute cringey moments of people together. Watching people together is always interesting and as I always say, there is a VERY thin line between love and hate and a very small time lapse. I don't know whether it's sad or quite odd that human emotions can become imbalanced in a matter of seconds.

How do you fall out of love? Once you've fallen in, it must be pretty damn deep. In metaphorical terms, I always think of love as being like a giant hole and the stronger your emotions become the more it becomes difficult to climb out. Except in this case, the hole is colourful and bright and full of hope.

How do you explain dating sites? Advertising to find your 'Perfect partner'? I hate the internet for allowing things like this, because I believe 'Love' should be natural if it exists in it's true form. I mean, I shouldn't talk so soon. Many adults use these after their relationships/marriages end but I personally don't agree with them.

The whole point of this random blog post was that my friend got me thinking whether there is actually someone out there for everybody. No two people are the same, but some people are definitely perfect for each other.

Up and up?

 In terms of maturing and developing myself, I have had a rather great 

past two weeks. The two weeks were in great contrast to each other, and 

showed each aspect of my personality well. I always hesitate to use the 

word 'Personality' whilst describing myself because I'm not too sure 

what mine is. I mean I know my interests, hobbies, friends but I'm not 

entirely sure on the true state of mind I have. 

Regardless, I hope it sounds like I'm moving in a positive direction 

by each blog post because that is my main aim. This blog is a startling 

reflection of my confidence levels, which are beginning to emerge 

again after being in the shadows for the past few years. It's weird 

because I'm only 17 yet I always feel much older than I actually am. 

Last week was a week of mistakes for me. Not just one, two or three- 

numerous mistakes which I felt personally persecuted by. It doesn't 

bother me in that someone would get angry at me. The worst feeling 

for someone to have in me is disappointment because I feel that 

too and further feel disappointed in myself. It was also a week 

of great and worse achievement, in terms of personal and academic 

goals. Sometimes I get nervous and stress at small mistakes I've 

made but in making so many I've realised that I just need to 

embrace them and move on. Staying focused on past mistakes 

only keeps you paused in the game of life. 

I'm finally starting to feel like the main person in my life. 

Fair enough, I'm not showy and don't like drawing attention to 

myself but I think I assert myself in the right way. One thing 

I love about myself is that I can change drastically in a few 

hours. Some people think that's strange, but am I living life 

to please them? No I'm not. I only get one go. No re-do. 

I'm thoroughly happy, and only small things stand in the way 

of me being truly happy in life. Those are small things. 

When things aren't going right, I need to try harder. When 

things are going right, I need to be thankful for 

everything fate hands me. 

Because I know one thing could change everything. 

Never been happier :)

This post really doesn't need any other explanation except the title... Just a random update. Mainly cos I have nothing better to write.

So byeeeee (:

Just watching..

I've had a rather odd couple of weeks but I guess things like this strengthen your personality and make you feel much better about yourself. Today I just simply sat for a number of minutes, on my own in the middle of town. 
- Watching people.
-  Everyone. 
-  Looking at their appearance, behaviours and tendencies.  

 People are all so different. It's weird to think that many of these people are often followers and not particularly unique. But when you see them as a singular- you see that they are different in their own right. No two people are the same and they never will be. Well the point I'm trying to make here is that we're all strange and we should certainly embrace this before it's too late. Don't let your decisions be clouded by someone else. Decisions are there for you to make. As someone who is rarely influenced and with an absence of personality, if you also feel like this don't let others create who you are.

Don't under estimate the power people can have on you.

Awareness Day 2012

Although this is not relevant to me atall, today is an important day for some people around the world. The day where they reflect on the lows in their life and how well they have come out of it. Suicide is one of the leading causes in deaths of 14-25 year olds, and more awareness needs to be raised of this. Before you make an insult, remember the effects it could have after.

Taking me for example; You could call someone fat, although they've worked hard and almost lost two stone and dedicate their life to working harder and ultimately being thin. All people want is to be loved. Not hated. Love is simple. Hate is not. If you hate someone, you clearly go out of your way to make their life a misery. 

It's almost the anniversary of  Jamey Rodemyer's death, next week which was something which could have been easily prevented. Bullied for being openly bisexual. Those people who called him names, hurt him and sent him tweets are responsible for his fate. RIP Jamey, much much love <3. Just remember, be thankful for your life.

Be thankful for your health and people around you. 

Of course you are loved.
 

I'm sky high..

Don't ever get complacent with what you have achieved because there is always someone out there who has got more than you.
NOT possession wise, however in terms of self fulfilment and dedication to dedicating themselves to making themselves the best they can be. There is no perfect person. We are all the best individually, unique and no two people are exactly the same. The world would be boring otherwise. If you feel like your life is not worth living, just remember your absence WILL affect at least one person and things do actually get better for people. I'm not talking about suicide (Only partially) but every aspect in life which involves walking away from someone or something that you love. 'Strive to make yourself perfect in your eyes'. If you are happy within yourself and with those around you, you don't need much more in your life.

Surround yourself with people who are important, and value your presence in their life. Whilst that isn't always possible, be as honest and open as possible. If you're like me and you find it difficult to make new friends, don't focus on that. Focusing on negatives within yourself outweigh the positives and you will not feel fulfilled as a person. Regardless of your weight, height, personality, race and sexual orientation, if somebody is a friend they are so. Do not question friendship. A common misconception is that friendship requires friends to know everything about one another. Not true. It may feel like a relief to tell out one of your secrets, but one day those secrets could go public.

'I'd trust you with my life' is something I often see two best friends say to one another. Let's be honest now, you wouldn't trust anyone with your actual physical life, and if you did you'd end up regretting it. Friendship is for now and don't ever feel pressured to fit in and make friends and go against the crowd. Being 'uncool' and going against the majority is what I especially seem to be good at. And it's great. Don't ever feel like you should conform to what people around you want. Even your family. They may say they only 'Want what's best for you'.

Only you truly know you.

And you're perfect, so keep working towards your goals x

Who or what we are..

This is a completely irrelevant blog post to the last but I finally feel like I'm getting to grips with who I am. I have overcome sheer self-hatred of myself, my personality and my body. There have been points where my self confidence has diminished so much I felt invisible and it didn’t help that not many people around me seemed to care. But from this, you grow in character if you are strong enough. This results in gain of confidence. I'll admit I'm not the world's most confident person, but the feeling of self worth is an important quality to have in yourself. Even the tiniest part can be a large help. For some people, it may not be a natural instinct and for others they are able to praise themselves excessively. Extreme cases would include celebrities when their ego is boosted too much. However, back to my initial point. I'm not perfect and never will be but in this past year and especially this summer I have learnt a lot about myself, accepted myself for who I am and what I like-this can be difficult for many people. It can take some longer than others but this is one of the main steps in becoming an adult and having independence of your mind.

I am still regarded as a child by both my friends and family, due to my behaviour and outlook on life. I often like to think that I have a sense of maturity (Like all 17/18 year olds would!) but in reality, I am just still a kid trying to gain life experience and branch out from the familiar and onto something new. I find it difficult adjusting to change, one of my weakest qualities but it's something which has grown on me. Nobody is full of strengths, I assure you. Even your idol- that person you admire everyday and want a similar life to, have their own doubts and characteristics they dislike. You can’t allow yourself to grow/nurture if you were faultless.

If you have a problem don’t just solve the problem and move on with your life, it was there because you learned something from it and was not there to cause an inconvenience in your life. Call it what you like, but I am one of those people who believes that everything happens for a reason and not just because of your own actions. 'The best die young' and 'Bad things happen to good people' are merely clichés used to evade the fact that fate does not come to those who are 'Right' or 'Wrong'.

The world opens you to endless possibilities

Also, what are right actions? In society, we have built up an ideology that you can only be successful through slaving yourself, working for half of your life for almost nothing in return. If you see where I'm coming from, listen to 'The Chronicles of life and Death' by Good Charlotte and listen to the lyrics carefully to see these kind of people. Those 'Live to work' people who don't realise that you only get one shot at life, no re-do. They recognise possessions merely.

Those are people who don't appreciate life and all it has to offer. In our Western society, to be 'Successful' you need to have studied, got a job and had a family or become famous with many fans fawning over your every move. Some achieve this feat and realise that they are not happy and their dream as a reality is indeed a nightmare. However, some people seem to forget that you can have success within yourself. Setting personal goals- small which lead up to the larger picture and ideal are the way to begin. If you're unhappy, find success. Success may not be purely academic; it could be writing, starting a new sport or setting yourself a new target.

These apples may look different, but they are all the same inside.

Success can be in the simplest form. It may be trying a new diet, winning a race or even making new friends- don’t let others define what success is for you.

I have realised that success starts with yourself. 

FAT CAT!

True to my word, I haven't actually updated this due to the natural procrastination which occurs during summer. My bad. But still, I'm writing now aren't I? I think the less often I write, the better quality and longer the posts are on this site. I may actually also get back into actual writing, giving it a go won't cause me any harm. Over these THREE months that I've been off on holidays, I've written a number of 'One shots,' which are essentially short stories or situations around 4 pages or shorter. This is just practice though, when I'm happy with my consistency I will start actually uploading to my wattpad account.

Anyway, onto the Olympics. I think they were absolutely incredible and the push we finally needed to inspire a lazy generation and turn them toward both sport and success. You wouldn't believe that a year prior to these games, I was tweeting about how disgusted I was at the riots and anybody involved in them. London is an inspirational city, driven by the passionate people living here. We all work together when necessary.  Great medal haul for Great Britain and I believe we can strive to be even better in the Paralympics, currently happening at the moment. These athletes are the real role models and heroes, ones I wish I had when I chose to give up the numerous sports I competed in. No doubt, GB will be even stronger in 2016 and maybe there will be a chance of topping the medal table. Despite not being involved myself, London 2012 so far has been an unforgettable experience to watch. The atmosphere has been amazing, but unfortunately this only happens every four years that we fully unite as our nations compete!
Despite finding a majority of the opening ceremony boring (Like most people did), I thoroughly enjoyed the closing ceremony. I think it was the fact it was about music which done it for me, all these incredible artists from over the years lined up in one show. However, I wouldn't exactly include One Direction as legendary. Take That were great, and credit to Gary Barlow for performing after such a tragedy. Not a big fan of Jason Orange after his antics, however. My favourite part of the ceremony (Minus Take That), was definitely seeing Richard Jones (The Feeling) play bass for Ed Sheeran. This sort of links into my next topic actually...

Dan Gillespie Sells and Paul Stewart.

As I began writing this, it's been a full month since I saw The Feeling live. They are incredible and if you like them, please go and actually see them at a show and you will not be disappointed. I promise? :). Hyde Park was brimming with people, full of olympic spirit and I think that contributes to why the band got such a good reception. Everyone appreciates their music, of course. I literally cannot find a person who dislikes this band, for whatever reasons. I especially like their new song 'Anchor,' it's something a little different but good to see they're trying something newer with album 4. I've only seen it live twice but it's growing on me each time I've heard/seen it. I'm becoming a bigger fan of the band by the day!












This time last year I was tweeting about how mortified I was at the fact we lost 5-1 to Manchester City, but at least we were on our way to being 4th in the table. Modric, VDV and numerous others out and I actually believe our squad has been weakened. Ledley King in retirement and our back four looking shaky as ever. I must say, I'm obviously not a glory hunter (I support spurs!!) But I actually don't mind if we settle for 5th or 6th this season. Then it may become apparent that we need new players and a refreshed squad. Spurs fans can never make their minds up though, a few weeks ago they wanted Harry out and now they want him back in. Talk about indecisive. However, football is becoming less and less interesting as seasons go on. My only hope for the season is that the current title holders don't retain it.

I'm actually going to try and be creative for my next blog post and try and attract more readers. I start college next week and I should really start getting something done.

Thanks for reading! ^__^

I really haven't updated this in quite a while due to exams. I'm contemplating actually doing some writing and putting some short stories or poems up on here for people to read if they're interested. I've got a wattpad account, if you like things like that follow me: 'Oliviadavis_'. My past few months have actually been so hectic. Not busy hectic, just procrastinating sorta hectic. I really do have a habit of doing that, and it's not a healthy one. My topics of this blog will be really random and whatever comes to mind because it's been so long since I've last blogged. My next post might be some insightful messages, or something along those lines purely because I have so much time on my hands at the moment.

The second half of tottenham's season can only be comparable to a see saw, where one half is up and the other one is down. During the speculation of Harry being England manager, the team were not on form and were consistently losing. New England manager- 'Spurs go back to being good'. I also think that the reason for the lack of consistency is because the squad wasn't rotated enough at christmas. The champions league final was also extremely disappointing, as Munich thoroughly deserved the win. Europa next season for us I guess, although I'm not too fussed about that. It's better than having no Europe atall, and we finished within our actual target for the season. I am underjoyed at the fact that Man city won the premier league. They didn't deserve it. But the last game of the season with QPR was actually so typical but tense. Next season (In my opinion) is not going to be a particularly good one, what with Daniel Levy sacking Redknapp and not being in any sort of hurry to appoint a new boss. Personally I think that's terrible, the squad need someone to warm to in pre-season etc. Anyway, I can't see us getting above 5th place if both Modric and Bale decide to leave us. AVB is the most probable next manager, and I think it's a good choice. I'm a tottenham fan, whether we come 4th or 20th, it doesn't matter.

Although I am a massive fan of take that, The wanted are one of my admitted guilty pleasures and I went to see them back in March. Despite being right at the top, I had a great time and the atmosphere was actually amazing. The Wanted are actually great live, and I highly recommend them. They seem like your typical cheesy boyband but they do actually have some decent songs and can play well live. They are also quite instrumental for a boy band, they can each play one instrument- which I love. The best part of the concert was their 'Coldplay medley' and their performance of 'lose my mind,' which will always be my favourite song of theirs. Their songs are so catchy and it doesn't help that my close friend is a massive fan! Anyway, it was a great night and I wouldn't hesitate to see them live again for the fourth time!

The Wanted; 3rd March 2012

I honestly haven't had much to do atall after exams, everything has been so boring and everyone else is unavailable. I attended the xfactor auditions in London, and I found the show to be getting extremely boring- maybe it has finally reached it's 'Sell by date'. I mean, there are less bad acts than before but the format of the show is monotonous and it's always clear who is going to succeed and who isn't. You have to be incredibly open and 2 dimensional to get far on the show, if you're anymore difficult then the public won't warm to you and you'll be out within the first few weeks. This was the case with Kitty Brucknell, fantastic singer and personality but lost to her inability to attract the public. But that's reality shows in a nutshell I guess. I am quite happy with the choice for the fourth judge, Nicole Sherzingher has been proved to create acts which are succeeding in the real world such as One Direction. This season should be better than the last, although still bad which doesn't particularly bother me because it still means Gary Barlow is on my tv every week-end!!!

Leona Lewis as guest judge :')

Seeing as it's summer, it will be spent looking for jobs, tweeting and sending random blogs like this with lots of detail. I (At this moment in time), have two gigs to go to to see The Feeling and it's going to be great. I am going to AmpRocks on the 29th June and Hyde Park on the 30th July. They should be great days/nights, as I have heard that this band are amazing live and they have some great songs also! If I don't blog for awhile, I hope everyone reading this has a great summer and has fun, even if the weather treats us as badly as it has been!

                                                                                          Thanks for reading x

Me and Barlow xD

A few little events...

I have truly had such an exciting past two or three months, I suppose I waited for quite a while to blog again so I would have loads of material. Aka not becoming boring, which I am but merh. On the 9th october, I attended the Radio1 teen awards and it was veritably good. No one really stood out for me except Ed Sheeran maybe because the whole room was silent when he sang. But it was still a nice occasion. To be honest, it's the same every year but with different (Mostly overrated) artists. But I got to the front and got a few hugs off people so I'm happy with that really.
On Tuesday 1st November, I went to see Jessie J at the Hammersmith Apollo. It was brilliant, and I am amazed at how she sings live each and every time she performs. Her voice is truly beautiful, and after that I am now an even bigger fan. I'm wishing her the best in a journey that can only guide her upwards. My favourite songs by her are Nobody's Perfect and Who You Are. I was (And still am) jealous of the girl who got to go up onstage and sing with her. Also, 'Who you are' is now one of my favourite songs, and I am consistently watching the video I took of it live. Simply stunning.

I also won tickets to go to the X-factor live shows for 'Movie week'. I queued for absolutely hours but the tiresome wait proved worthwhile. Whilst standing in a line for the toilet (How attractive I might add), Craig and Marcus ran past. They seemed almost in awe, as they weren't aware we were there and said Hey. Also waved and said hi to Olly Murs, was within touching distance of him. And I embarrassed myself on national TV, how fun. All in aid of being noticed by Gary Barlow. It was a fun night, I'd love to go again if Gary gets confirmed as a judge next year. I very much wanted to attend the final, as I was offered a ticket by a friend but was unable to attend.
Also, how well have Tottenham been doing in the premier league? We are third with a game in hand above both Arsenal and Chelsea. Currently the team of London at the moment. This is brilliant, minus that loss to PAOK and us crashing out of Europa but I think Harry is focusing on a Top 4 finish more importantly. The team is consistent, on form and scoring the all important goals needed. Can't fault them at all. Clean sweep for us, with Scott Parker and Harry Redknapp being named both Manager and Player of the month for November. Consistent wins, despite a loss at stoke last week, we need to keep this up if we want a decent position. Keep it up lads!

Third with a game in hand!

On the Saturday night before GB-RAH, I attended the Capital Jingle Bell Ball. It was honestly better than I was expecting it to be-Olly Murs was fantastic and I now like him a little more. Jason Derulo and Pixie Lott are quite average, and I had saw them already.

I still can't get over the fact that Labrinth plays the guitar!
He also has a brilliant voice. The night was rounded off with a very showy (Abit flat) performance by Rihanna. The performer we had all been anticipating, yet she was verging on awful. The Wanted stood out for me. I'm considering going to see them in London next March. It was a brilliant night compared to what I was expecting, and the night I was going to have on the Monday...
 And the Monday 5th December arrived, it was the day. Unfortunately I had to attend college, where I remained unfocused throughout the day until 4pm. It was only for Gary Barlow RAH -Insert Sarcasm-. After a long, nearly delayed journey I arrived at Kensington at the Royal Albert Hall. The hall is absolutely stunning, and I insisted on taking a picture to show this.

The concert was absolutely fantastic, with Gary delivering as usual. Also, added with a little of his remarkable dry humour. Opening with 'Greatest Day' and going into 'Reach Out,' it was truly a night to remember. Before Monday, I didn't particularly like 'Could it be magic' but now I like it a bit better after Gary performed it 'Beautiful World style'. The memorable night was added to by many things, such as he done the 'Pray' dance not once but TWICE and treated us to a medley of 'I'd wait for life,' 'Lie to me,' 'Love ain't here anymore' and 'Forever Love'. #loveit. Following the interval, a crowd of middle aged fans surged forward and to the side as he strode through them, attempting to sing 'Everything Changes' meanwhile. Barlow basically got molested, even by men. His brilliant performances of 'Nobody Else' and 'patience' were brilliant and had the audience on their feet within seconds. The first guest, was LuLu of course, as they sang 'Relight my fire' together. 'I swear she gets younger everytime I see her?' He joked. The second guest was Jason Donovan, singing one of his songs whilst Gary played the piano. Didn't really interest me but it was quite good. Then, Olly Murs came on and sung 'Shine'. It totally suited his voice. Mark Owen who? It was my second time seeing him in one week and I was incredibly #excited. Marcus Collins was ill, so we weren't given a song from him although the Tuesday audience were.

Sums up the night! 'Everything changes'

'This is the worst bit, I have to go now,' before 'Back for Good,' which has to be one of my favourite songs live, ever. I especially love it as the crowd chorus and it all comes together and we all feel united as fans. We were then suddenly introduced to 'Never Forget,' which I don't think I will ever forget. Meanwhile, a friend had called me and was mesmerised by how fantastic it all sounded. My seats were slightly at the side, and it was truly amazing seeing everyone else do the arm movements, Which of course look like this in case you didn't know:' \o/ '. My highlight of the night was probably Gary singing 'Rule the world' and 'Patience'. I am totally in love with the way he introduces Patience 'This was the song that brought us back after all these years'.That was only my second 'Proper' concert and it will always be the best. Honestly a fantastic musical experience that I would love again!
Thanks for reading...

GARY BARLOW

I love him even more now, haha!

21st october: I usually wait for a lot to blog about but this amazing moment has to be blogged about! I met him one month and seven days ago, and then he follows up with a tweet. Also, it's exactly one month until the Progress Live DVD is released and the CD will follow a week later, as it has just been announced.

Honestly can't wait!!
Gary Barlow tweeted me one simple word followed by two x's. I was trying to get my friend Hayley noticed but then he replied to that and then to Hayley. So simple but it made me so happy, what is even better is that I wasn't even expecting it. 'Hi xx' will be the best tweet I have ever ever received. That is all.

Radio 1 and happenings.

Today was possibly the best morning I have had in my entire life and I can honestly not even put words into a logical sentence at the moment, at how I feel at having met my favourite singer and favourite person, and also the added bonus of meeting two other people. Words that could come close to describing are excitable, amazement and happiness with what occurred in today's events, despite my actually having to leave at 5:30am. I unfortunately seriously overestimated how many people would turn out for Mr Barlow, so I ended up there an hour and a half before he was even due to arrive. I don't know what it is with London and not having (m)any public toilets, I was trailing around looking for one for about an hour.

Love the shoes!

And with great anticipation, I arrived at Radio1 and there were only around 20-30 people there to greet him, each time a car passed, we would stare just to see if it was possibly him. And eventually he arrived. He was looking gorgeous as usual, but I simply fell in love with the shoes he was wearing, they were actually beautiful and I was actually the first person to point this out. Believe it or not, noone screamed or shouted, he simply made his way across and we requested either a picture, signature or even both. I don't know what it is with TV, but it does actually make people look taller, Gary is actually really small. I deeply regret not bringing my songbooks for him to sign, but maybe something for next time, but I did get an autograph and I was pretty happy with that to be fair.

Everyone always comments on how nice and genuine Gary is, and I have to confirm that it is actually an untrue rumour. He is MUCH nicer than anyone could even describe, generally lovely, making general conversation and joking about his cock-up on Sunday, 'I been singing that song for 15 years and I still ballsed up the lyrics'. He is so relaxed and chilled, which could possibly explain why he is so late these days, just laid so back but of course he'll always deny it.

OOPS, I blinked ;)

As I handed him the envelope with my letter and all the messages from my followers for him to read, he replied:
"Oh, is that for me. Thank you very much, would you like a picture?'
Honestly such a gentleman and was that even a question, I was literally shaking as I put my arm round him, it was honestly one of the best feelings I have ever experienced. I say arm, but tragically I only touched his shoulder but close enough for me! I seriously want to meet him again. Just my luck for him to slightly blink in the picture, but he still looks absolutely adorable and I know what colour his eyes are anyways. Does he look dark or what though, he's usually SO pale. I'm so upset that I can't go to CIN rocks, coldplay, snow patrol, gary, lady gaga but I suppose it is time for London to stop taking the headlines every year and for the show to return to his hometown.

It didn't stop there though, we heard from Chris that Pixie Lott was coming so we decided to stay for awhile longer. She was honestly so pretty, looking beautiful and even had a sharpie ready to sign autographs for people.

BIGGEST flirt!

 The next surprise was Oritse Williams, 1/4 of JLS. As he arrived, we could literally smell him, and he smelt divine, he's also a big flirt (Gotta love it!). I was hugging him for like a minute before it actually got creepy. He looks absolutely stunning in real life, yet it's Aston and Marv who get all the attention from JLSters. Anyway, he smelled beautiful and had to run off quickly in another direction.

This brilliant morning will actually be the highlight of my year, meeting three singers before 10AM in the morning. Not many people can say they have actually done that! I actually want to meet Gary again, without the restriction of the barrier. It was an amazing couple of hours and I also met Chris Moyles and caught a glance of Vernon Kay, as he hared into the studios.

TODAY THIS WAS THE GREATEST DAY OF MY LIFE!

My past 2-3 weeks

I've had a brilliant couple of weeks, I love weeks like this where you have so much to do and you just love your life so much! I mean, next week I will be either crying or wanting to just go out, get wasted and burn all my books and folders from the past two weeks. This week I went to the Xfactor twice, mainly to see the GORGEOUS Gary Barlow and Kelly Rowland strutting their stuff at the press launch. Below (Not my photography) is a picture of the fabulous judges at the Press Launch yesterday, they were over two hours late and took an hour to travel down the red carpet apparently.
 

I don't mind though, because the interviews they conducted were true and honest. Gary was looking stylish with his purple shirt and his waistcoat along with the girls, who were looking like total divas. After the long wait while they took their pictures etc, I was then REFUSED entry to the screening, but everything's still good- I'm going to try and get some priority tickets to the Xfactor live shows. I have never really liked Xfactor, but this year I just can't get enough of the show! (And Mr Barlow!). In December, I might even cry because he won't be on TV every Saturday and Sunday.

 Edited on 27th August 2011(Written on Friday 19th August)
Either way, I had a ticket to Bootcamp the next day so I prepared because there was a forecast of torrential rain. And like a genius, I didn't decide to bring an umbrella with me! Due to my all-nighter the night before, I was convinced that I would actually be able to sleep that night as I lay in my bed at 10pm, but still at 1am I was staring at the ceiling wondering why my body had not given in to obvious tiredness. So up I jumped out of bed and on the laptop, where I skype until 6AM before I got ready, as I was to meet my friend at 7:30AM.
When you are not in a rush the Metropolitan Line decides to run efficiently, arriving exactly as you step on the platform, you're probably thinking 'Well that is good timing' but it wasn't, I ended up at Wembley arena at 7:38AM. Bootcamp's doors were due to open at 11AM.

In the first 100 for X-Factor Bootcamp!

I LOVE how they put all those metal fences up to keep the queue in but when you arrive first, you are literally going around and around and around and around until you eventually die of tiredness and want to dive head-first toward the floor. And you're not allowed to sit down-brilliant. This was getting better and better by the minute. I Then got involved in an overly petty argument that I had jumped the queue, which of course I HAD, but I wasn't going to have a fight over this with saddos who had queued there since 6AM. This picture shows the utter brilliance of being the first in the queue and all the thousands of people behind you, and what a matter of half an hour can make to where you sit in the Arena. It was an anything but 'Nice' wait as the puffy grey clouds above us looked set to give us a month's rain. But it didn't, and we arrived into Wembley safe and dry. Wembley Arena really need to sort out their policies though, I was one of the first hundred in and I got quite bad seats while the latecomers received seats RIGHT in the paths of the judges. Jealous much!
I wasn't in the mood  to complain so I settled down to the acts and enjoyed my day thoroughly and I actually didn't manage to fall asleep, despite having had one hour sleep in the two days. I particularly enjoyed Goldie Cheung (Yes she somehow made it to the end of bootcamp!), although I didn't have a clue who she was then because the first episode of the X-Factor wasn't to air until the Saturday coming. This amazingly blurry picture  to your right shows what happens when you want more than just a hug with Gary Barlow! Yes, I did nearly get kicked out for taking this picture!
The people waiting for the afternoon session however, didn't have much luck, as a month's worth of torrential rain poured on them as they waited in the cold and wet. Honestly, I've never felt as sorry as I have for those ten thousand people in my life, except for Arsenal fans getting slaughtered 8-2 by United, I will comment on this later. I may have been tired, but Roycey (Follow him!: @officialroycey) and his constant joking and laughing was the only thing keeeping me awake. Trust me you will see him on your TV screen pretty soon, if you haven't seen him on the Xtra Factor already!

 On Thursday 25th August, I was one of the 750,000 teenagers who actually got out of bed before 9AM this summer and arrive at school to collect the two pieces of paper which would have such a massive effect on the rest of our lives and anything we wish to do in the next four years. Twelve years of mainstream education, which had all built-up to this one tense day that could make or break you! It didn't help that it was pouring with rain, my mum was to open my envelope and that I had hardly missed any of the 350 people in my year. But anyway, I was up bright and early to listen to Mr Barlow on The Chris Moyles Show, which of course brightened up my day before it had even begun! And in the rain, I was off to collect my GCSE results. I am not looking forward to A-Level results day ATALL, it will be twice as bad as the gut feeling I had on that day. Well, I gave it to my mum and she thankfully screamed with happiness. #WIN These two bits of paper are what made sure I got into Sixth form and hopefully gets me into uni.

GCSE results, my school are so cheap they printed over the bottom #fail

Enough of me constantly talking about how gorgeous Gary Barlow and Kelly Rowland are and everything to do with my life and daily occurances, I will begin the topic of something I have been ashamed to be a part of for these past few weeks, yes I know half of my friends will already know what I'm talking about. Being a fan of Tottenham Hotspur. I honestly don't know how I have been able to watch my team get absolutely HAMMERED these past two weeks, it has been an incredibly embarrassing couple of weeks for most London teams. The only thing within football I am particularly elated by, is that my second team Liverpool have been on brilliant form at the moment. Suarez especially, he's scored every game! But anyway, back onto tottenham, we have conceded 8 goals and scored 1 in two games. You know you're in trouble when a centre back scores the first goal of the season at home! It's heartbreaking when you log onto the team's website and have to witness this:

"I'm here to score goals" - well I would bloody hope so!

I have always hated Manchester City and words are simply not enough to explain how much of a burning passion I have for the club and any supporters I am not friends or acquaintances (Excuse the spelling) with. We have Liverpool next week, which again probably means we are going to lose and stay in a nice comfortable 20th place, with 0 points from a possible 9. After today's game I stated to my mum that Tottenham and their fans need to go hide in a dark corner for preferable for next month, that was of course before I saw the Manchester United-Arsenal game. After last week's disaster with liverpool, I was expecting a decent victory but not an 8-2 mauling. It almost looked as though Arsenal were allowing them to put the ball in the back of the net. Match of The Day 2 tonight shall be highly entertaining, 20 goals in just 4 games! I don't think that feat has been achieved for YEARS. Highly embarrassing, and I wouldn't be suprised if I see in The Sun tomorrow that Arsene Wenger has been sacked. It is currently Bank Holiday Sunday, and I am looking forward to what is possibly my last lie-in before I go to enroll at Sixth Form on Tuesday and begin my journey into the world of work.

Recent events and the coming season

If Sunday's community shield match at Wembley is anything to go by, looks like Manchester City will be in for a shocking Premier League season, as they squandered a 2-0 lead against football giants Manchester United. I cannot express the utter distaste I have at the mentality of the owners of City, this 'I have millions so I can buy the title,' - the same attitude Roman Abromavich had but look where Chelsea have ended up. United may be in debt, but at least they are winning titles, buying and selling within the transfer market and also giving new talent such as Ashley Young a chance to shine. As much as I have always liked Ashley Young, I think he stands out more as "Aston Villa's winger" rather than "Just one of those players at Manchester United" but he was drawn in by the prospect of higher wages, actually WINNING a trophy and having to fight for a place in a highly talented squad. Despite this, as the seasons go on, I am beginning to lose interest in football as the game lacks the passion and drive previously displayed, and instead becomes more money-orientated and players taking their eye off the ball too often (I.E their social life). Not for me to make a judgement, but I really do believe that the game has almost become alike a reality show

Before I comment anymore on my predictions for the season, I will actually have to look into the squads and how I predict each team is going to fare this season. I am also thoroughly surprised at the decision NOT to postpone Tottenham's first game of the season against Everton on Saturday, although Tottenham High Road is barely recognisable after the rampage which took place on the streets on Saturday, as the picture below shows.

Us as a club have a brilliant prospective season ahead of us, qualifying for the Europa league this year and finishing just below the top 4. However,with Liverpool's recent strengthening of their squad, I do believe they are in with a chance of making at least the top 5 this coming 2011/12 season. As a Tottenham fan myself, I am concerned for children, the less able and women around being this area, just incase trouble does occur again. It is simply too dangerous to have 35k+ of people milling around the streets, at risk of minor injuries. Also, the police force has been stretched to it's limits and does not need the problem of rowdy football fans, although this seems to only be a minority of fans. I mirror Harry Redknapps view about recent events in Tottenham as 'Appalling' but I admire his faith in the community and I am wishing him the best in the coming season, (And crossing my fingers he doesn't get offered the England job!)

FINALLY I manage it!

I'm new to this so bare with me. God, after over a week of trying to figure out how this Blogging thing works, I'm finally typing and ready to update everyone and anyone on the opinions I have regarding current affairs and recent events which concern me. The topic of each post I put up may change, and all the opinions on this are my own. And so I begin...